I cried to myself, & i really dont know what to do.
SoE Games Day is probably the worst event i ever had. Despite it was a small event, i screwed it up. I really do not know whether did i made a right choice to be even in the Society. Planning begins way before i headed to Wuhan. During my trip to Wuhan, balancing my studies and Society stuff isn't easy at all, and what made it worst was my travelling plan.
School reopen, and there was a meeting. After i was convinced by a few of the members, postponing the event could be a better thing. Problems still arise despite a month delay. Had tonnes of problems with the participants and helpers. Preparation was done about 3 weeks before the event, however there're still so much amendment to be done hours before the event. Changes are endless...After checking, i immediately printed all the papers without delay, as i know it would be too late if i would to print on the actual day. Instead of taking my IS Lesson on the exact same day, i requested to my lecturer to have my lesson on other days with his other class, so that it wouldn't be so cramp. However it was my bad that my test ended up on the same day at 3.15pm. As i knew i would be late, so i came out with instruction list to make sure nothing is being left out and pass it on the Shawn. Im really glad that the Com agreed to help me without hestating. I quickly finished my test in less then 15 mins and headed down. God wasn't at my side too, I was stuck in a traffic jam together with KongHock on bus.
Once i reached the Sports Complex, i'm so glad to see everything was setup, and all this were credited to all the MDES Com who were present. I immediately took out the documents and camera to capture every moments. Things were just too chaotic! After games started, i immediately start working on the CCA points system, so that the after-job wouldn't be so tedious. Once soccer ended, axel siewyee and i headed over to the basketball court and cleared the litters, as we waited basketball to end off their game.
After gamble with the weather, it turn out well. Relief. Prize presentation and then packed up. However it doesn't end well at all. Having Mr John Lam as our photographer, i would need his help to take a photo of the whole MDES Com as this was the first event that everyone turn up. With the fucking stupid me, not aware that my committees were up at the sports hall helping us to pack up, i shouted for them for a picture. & yes, i deserve that fuck. At that period of time, how i wish i can just run away. With that feeling i took down the banner, and what made it worst was that Mrs Lee came and asked me "Why are you taking out the banner, i though you'll wanna take photo?" when John Lam was right below me, keeping his Camera... I felt really lousy....
As i decided to head home alone, i been pondering, what should i do? I really don't know. Im sorry....
First was the preparation of all the events on hand, next was my friend that passed away, then SoE Games day, and now my sister company is running into problem. Stretched to the Maximum.... Is either all this matters fuck off, if not i will fuck off from this world. That's it.